Day 13, 14, & 15
What baby wants, baby gets
It’s safe to say that my weaning journey has come to a complete halt. I even took a step or two backwards. On Friday, we found out that Bean has an ear infection. That’s why he could not shake those fevers. I find it ironic that he has his second ear infection in life when I happen to be weaning him. But I won’t make any crazy connections, I know tis the season for sick kiddos.
So… we pretty much are back nursing morning, nap, and night (all. Damn. night). We went to see Sesame Street Live Saturday. He wasn’t feeling his best but he’d been on antibiotics for 24 hours and I (I mean Bean) certainly did not want to miss the show. So we went to the show at 10:45am. The performance was strategically planned to ensure a nap would follow. However, since Bean was not feeling his best, he was ready to nap by noon. And the show was only halfway over. He became antsy and cranky and kept telling me “out”. So he was ready to go. Me, being the control freak that I am, wanted to stay until the end of the show. Really, I was dreading having to gather up Bean, his diaper bag, and our coats to climb over other parents and children to exit the building early. Bean was adamant and continued to attempt to pull my nipple out through the collar of my shirt. What’s a mommy to do?
Yep! You guessed it. We nursed right there in the Cannon Center. I’m sure no one noticed or even cared. It was pretty dark and I used his coat and his stuffed Elmo as shields. And just like that… 3 giant steps backwards! We returned to nursing On Demand in public! Something I haven’t done since we flew to Mexico 3 months ago. Sigh.
I have questioned my ability to wean several times and pretty sure that if I weren’t blogging the journey I would just decide to push my end date back another 6 months.
I do have a small victory to report!
Last night I put Bean to sleep in my bed. I woke up around 2:00 am to turn off the space heater in the bedroom because it was so hot! Bean also woke up and immediately demanded “night night”. When I left the bed to tend to the heater he started to scream. He was mad that I got up! I had pretty much had it because for the past 7 nights of him not feeling well I have slept with him glued to me. I have sacrificed toilet breaks, meals, and adequate shower time just to cuddle him and make sure he is absolutely comfortable and I can’t even get out of the bed to turn off the heater so I don’t melt without being screamed at.
I told him “No night-night!” I got back in the bed and kept pushing him away. He was so angry! Pulling at me, hitting, kicking his legs in the air. But I was so over it, I just repeated myself “no night-night! Go to sleep.” I turned over on my stomach and went back to sleep. I was tired. And so was Bean apparently because when I woke up this morning he was still asleep on the other side of the bed! Win!!!!!!